Before I was a mom:
Everything was an experience and an adventure. I had an agenda, and it was be enlightened. Meeting new people and learning from their lives was energy for my soul. It was and always will be interesting to me how we become the people we are. Nurture vs. Nature if you will. I fed off of other people's experiences, theories, and stories as an education and for adventure. I moved 37 times in 9 years, and I lived with, worked with, partied with, danced with, ate with, worshipped with, talked with so many souls. All of which had a story, had pain, had joy, were lost, were questioning, were trying their darnedest or had given up, all were inspiring and helped me answer my own questions; and all were part of my adventure.
The transition into motherhood has been beautiful, but my adventure has in a lot of ways ceased, because my life is dedicated to Everest's adventure now. And I am still trying to find a middle ground between my adventure and his. As parents we have ideas of what our children will become, and even further what we hope for them to become. And my dream of Everest is that he will become one of the people that I would have met in my adventure days that would have enlightened me, and inspired me. I want him to be a traveler, I want him to be humble, giving and kind. I hope he is confident, and secure. But I also hope he questions everything, and seeks to be enlightened by love and people. I want him to climb a mountain, and back pack through Iceland and meet amazing people, and drink weird beer. I pray he knows God's love in a real and convicting way.
As soon as I become pregnant, my adventure was over. I felt like I had to take what I learned, find a conclusion and focus on Everest's adventure instead. And that's what I have done. The free bird I was became a home body. The most enlightening people in my life are other Christian moms, other single moms, and my parents. I have grown roots in these people. And I am inspired by them. And I am learning from these people that THIS is what parenting is: dedicating your adventure to shaping who your child becomes, how they see the world, how they love people, and teaching them how to seek God in their lives.
Sometimes I long for adventure, sometimes my new life feels mundane and commonplace but I am going to raise a kind-hearted mountain man, Lord willing and the creek don't rise. :-)
Everything was an experience and an adventure. I had an agenda, and it was be enlightened. Meeting new people and learning from their lives was energy for my soul. It was and always will be interesting to me how we become the people we are. Nurture vs. Nature if you will. I fed off of other people's experiences, theories, and stories as an education and for adventure. I moved 37 times in 9 years, and I lived with, worked with, partied with, danced with, ate with, worshipped with, talked with so many souls. All of which had a story, had pain, had joy, were lost, were questioning, were trying their darnedest or had given up, all were inspiring and helped me answer my own questions; and all were part of my adventure.
The transition into motherhood has been beautiful, but my adventure has in a lot of ways ceased, because my life is dedicated to Everest's adventure now. And I am still trying to find a middle ground between my adventure and his. As parents we have ideas of what our children will become, and even further what we hope for them to become. And my dream of Everest is that he will become one of the people that I would have met in my adventure days that would have enlightened me, and inspired me. I want him to be a traveler, I want him to be humble, giving and kind. I hope he is confident, and secure. But I also hope he questions everything, and seeks to be enlightened by love and people. I want him to climb a mountain, and back pack through Iceland and meet amazing people, and drink weird beer. I pray he knows God's love in a real and convicting way.
As soon as I become pregnant, my adventure was over. I felt like I had to take what I learned, find a conclusion and focus on Everest's adventure instead. And that's what I have done. The free bird I was became a home body. The most enlightening people in my life are other Christian moms, other single moms, and my parents. I have grown roots in these people. And I am inspired by them. And I am learning from these people that THIS is what parenting is: dedicating your adventure to shaping who your child becomes, how they see the world, how they love people, and teaching them how to seek God in their lives.
Sometimes I long for adventure, sometimes my new life feels mundane and commonplace but I am going to raise a kind-hearted mountain man, Lord willing and the creek don't rise. :-)
My eyes are about ready to start pouring. I love ya! This was a good one! It is beautifully written.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post Tausha!
ReplyDeleteSomething that I have to remind my husband is that life, fun and adventure doesn't have to end once kids come along. You may have to slow down the fun process, but it never ends, it just shifts. Everest is a new companion to accompany you along and experience the journey with. He will grow, along with you, to become a God seeking, kind-hearted mountain man!
This was so well written, and as a fellow mama, I appreciated your message. Thanks! You blessed me today!
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